Saturday, August 6, 2005

Actually doing yesterday's blog since yesterday's blog was done early this morning. Actually since I had such a miserable Saturday, I never got to blog (since I didn't get up til 5 p.m.). I couldn't sleep Saturday night, even at 1 or 2 a.m. (I went to bed at 1 a.m.). I did take R at 5 p.m. when I got up so that probably had alot to do with it thought I also think that my excitement with getting stuff done and anticipating getting more and more things done with my improved system (writing items on whiteboard, projects on whiteboard, making a point of looking at it). I will try my best to not ignore my binder / my index cards when I get home.

Doing this and getting onto this new tact makes me feel much better -- that I'm moving in the right direction. However, I must always keep in mind that when I am well organized, I need to spend time on the things that are most important to me -- job, web site, romance, health, personal finance. Otherwise these systems are just reinforcing of the systems. I need to stop building the system, get it going, doing things that aren't that important to bolster the system, get frustrated, and never get to what's really important. The organizing systems are all for getting to the important things. That's always the goal and must be the goal!

Friday, August 5, 2005

Another so-so day. I've been way too stressed at work. Did play tennis and got some stuff in my car. Also asked Cecelia if it was okay if I asked her on a date which was great.

Thursday, August 4, 2005

Rough day yesterday which is why I am just doing the blogging now.

Too busy for too much. Don't like things that way. Its too frustrating. I did spend some time in my car yesterday afternoon which I really liked. That was great. I need to keep doing that and hopefully I'll get to where I need to be.

Otherwise all is well.

Tuesday, August 2, 2005

Decent day yesterday. Good to go to Kupper. I feel that I'm #3 at best on everyone's list. I also go in expecting people not to like me. I sometimes do the reverse, and when I get a neutral response I think people don't like me when they may be neutral or it may be something I can come back from. I need to believe that things aren't set in stone with other people. If they react in a negative way, that doesn't mean I won't get another chance. I need to realize that others can tolerate a bit of downness. I also need to realize that I have alot to offer -- even if some like me, some don't, and some are neutral. I have alot to offer no matter how I perceive how others perceive me.

Monday, August 1, 2005

Pretty good day yesterday. Did get some stuff done when I got home, particularly picking up food (following card) and putting wash in my car. Good job! Need to keep up this system while keeping to write notes in binder daily.

I'm a bit depressed though I feel better when Francisco tells me that he doesn't like the new breakfast setup. Also it was great taking a walk for break. That's so much more productive than sitting around, etc.

Still feel a bit stressed by I'm doing okay. My new system of having dates on the tasks and checking them daily is good. Also should read blogs weekly as part of weekly review.

Sunday, July 31, 2005

Pretty good day so far today. I did get going late to see Srikanth (which is his given name). His Father's name is Rajaham (or something like that).

Spoke with Mom and Dad. LM for Yvonne. I am okay when I know where I'm going and what I'm doing. When I'm in the ether I am very sad. I need to keep using the binder but using the cards as well from the computer and todo lists in the binder.

Did a fair amount of work this weekend. Oh well, what are you going to do.

If I can get on a schedule, I'll be doing better.