I'm once again feeling great stress. I am not sure why this is. Partly I have a terrible feeling with respect to Steve that he's going to complain about me or make up some story negative with respect to me. I don't know what to do about that other than to establish how I've felt for forever. Perhaps once I have established that and the greater legitimacy of my feelings, the better I'll feel. Perhaps I can write some letters and put them somewhere. I should write down in notes or a kind of writeup how I feel. Hopefully that will help. I also need to join Match.com, now!

I need to also talk w/Kupper about a number of these things.