Okay day so far. Putting stuff into outlook and doing it and being organized with my stuff, no matter how much I have helps so so so much. I need to start fresh on my organizer and work from there and then go back as needed.

Overall good stuff. Great time with Caroline last night. She's really cool.

Still stressing about Mom and Dad's letter but almost finished with first draft. I would really like to finish this, the LR Receipts, and set myself up for lr next session. That's really the best I can ask for.

Okay day. Just need to bear down and finish mom and dad letter.

So so day. I really need to finish up Mom and Dad's letter. I will feel so much better when I do. I also need to finish the LR Receipts stuff. Did fix car which was good.

Okay day so far. Pretty good Sunday though I really need to get out and really need more human contact.

Pretty good day. Already did this but it didn't take for some reason.

Got a fair amount done though lots more to do. Relax!

Decent day yesterday. My bins came in which so excited me. I didn't get all that much else done though I felt good about Rushall visiting me, doing break with Rob, interacting with Sanjay (him giving me credit for monitoring the Valence mold process), etc. Organizing my bins / trash cans in my trunk was great and made me feel great -- more than anything because now I know what's there, that I'm really in control, etc. I should probably get more trash bins but this is so so so great. I may not need more bins. Organizing the pens would help. Clear some of the papers out as well as the clothes. This was a great, really terrific first step. With a bit less in there and the pens out or the pens organized, It will work terrifically for me. I'm so excited by this. Its a huge move. Working out of my trunk is within reach.

The weekend will have been good if I get nothing else done. However, if I can finish my letter to Mom and Dad that would be great. Also listening to the Ellis tape felt great. I am okay that I didn't work the Caroline thing out so long as I maximize my other contact with Singles. The weekly review tomorrow is very important. The gathering, etc., etc. should be done. Let me get to the library (or perhaps the Westside Pavilion) by 1 p.m. If to the Westside Pavilion, perhaps by 10 a.m. or tonight? Also writing the letter is crucial. Working too would be so great (work orders, vs's, Project report, monthly report, next week org. for...). Also checklists and plans for the week I go home (to Pueblo and to airport). Also how should I use Angelina. What Spanish stuff do I need? Print these blogs out.

I need to get the big things off my back. I think when that happens I'll feel so much better. Things include a letter to Mom and Dad, LR Receipts, a letter to Steve, a letter to Yvonne, a calendarized game plan for LR, Dates for the school visit, Binderized fun pictures, functional kitchen, Washed kitchen and bathroom. I need to concentrate on these items, particularly the letters and LR stuff. Perhaps also doing things with reference to romance would help and job stuff.

All in all things are reasonably good. That's okay. Otherwise not much to tell. Hopefully I'll be able to do some of this stuff on Saturday and Sunday and blog then too.

Pretty good day yesterday up until I got home. Then kind of relaxed as I probably needed to. I should probably build in a couple of relaxation hours at the end of the day every day (say at 8 or after). Did get through lots of stuff at the library and added stuff to my outlook tasks. Overall things pretty good.

I think my new "today" form is working well so far. Its a bit overwhelming and I wish it were neater (maybe there's a way to make it that way) but I am glad its going well. Still feeling stress and felt a headache yesterday. A bit too eager on the phone with prospective volunteers (Amit...). Need to be more standoffish. Being too nice has too many drawbacks. I need to change my image there (perhaps a bit unreachable, a bit aloof). Glad I reached her and Jenny Dong.

Got next to nothing done at home once I got there. I mostly slept which helped with the headache but was dissappointing since I had high hopes with the today. Okay when I'm sick. So long as can catch items the next day and not feel that I need to throw my system out with a down day or two. Also need to be much less ambitious when I get home. Maybe put more home things before I leave or only if I have somewhere else to go to look forward to. More incentives would be good.

Not feeling well today. Don't know why, just a headache I guess. Doing some tweaking on my "daily" but perhaps I should just stick to the basics. The 15 minutes today of fun pictures in plastic felt great. That works so long as I am sure there's an end point and I do it consistently. The 15 minute thing works great provided that I can find a way to make sure that's what I do. Perhaps doing it in the car will help? I need to be somehow in a place that there are really no other distractions and all the tools are accessible and I don't need to get up or down or ... Am glad I got plastics and looked at my organizer before finishing my errands. Also made it out to see the Wedding Planners. That felt so great -- seeing a movie (something to talk about), having fun, getting out at a reasonable hour, doing something for me, having something to look forward to, giving myself a bit of freedom (an extra half hour to browse in the bookstore and get something unusual to eat, and so on. Perhaps I can make a point of seeing a movie every week and/maybe doing a book read every week or ??? Does that run counter to the 15 minute thing or can I do both so I don't get too bogged down in one or the other???

Need to get back to daily tr. That really really works well and I miss it! Maybe I can use items from it to put into outlook and then synchronize home and work outlook. Outlook is probably the way to go. Also along with the project list perhaps I can make a standard list of components of a project list (draft note, edit note, get email address, dictate note, transcribe note, send note, tickler for 2 day fu, separate thanks, etc.).

Pretty good day yesterday. There's something about being with my siblings and discussing Mom and Dad that I really hate.

Did get most of what I set out to do though I do need to scale back on my PaperMate hours. Try to do so this week and figure out how to gather all the relevant material together and get to it all at once (maybe with a tr and transcribing and figure out how to move the transcription to somewhere else that I use (the task list or the binder or ...?)

Pretty good day so far. Playing tennis was great. I just wish I had had the stamina to win. The weekly review, part of which I did this afternoon feels so great. I need to continue the habit of doing it on Wednesdays and Sunday.

Otherwise I'm rushing to get to everything else in my life. I just wish I felt better about everything.

Good day so far. A bit down when I got up and didn't get a lot done Friday night. But that's okay. I am hunkering down and focusing and have a lot of time to not push myself, inflict failure right away, or not focus on what's important. Doing stuff at home and focusing is really great. Having taken the medicine this morning around 10 am was probably a good thing.

All in all, making great progress.

I am okay. I guess I feel that I don't have enough of the review, get done, make sure all is okay system down. I am going to need to sit down over the weekend and figure out where all my open loops will be, figure out how to gather them all in one place, know how to get back to them if I need to or know that they will get taken care of in the following days and what MUST get taken care of today will and go from there. I must get the Allen steps down (this is another idea for the weekend).

I am still feeling funny about today. I am getting through it and think I'll take care of what I need to but I feel strangely anxious. Maybe if I just am sure to get the things listed in my binder done I'll be okay. I really do need to be okay. I'll try that. LESSON: BE SURE TO GET THE ITEMS DONE LISTED IN YOUR BINDER (OR TO PUT THEM SOMEPLACE WHERE YOU KNOW YOU CAN AND WILL FIND THEM LATER).

Didn't post since the 16th and its now the 19th? Uhoh. I guess I've had my thoughts elsewhere. Must try not to take my eye off the ball. Will fill in those gaps right now. This will be dated the 17th even though its the 19th. Perhaps I must dial back on some things I try to do and focus on what is important to me and what I do well. A what not to do list might be good (can only visit 5 non-email sites today (?), can only spend 20 minutes on newspaper a day, can only spend 10 minutes a day on clothes setup (get better way of doing it), can only spend 20 minutes the day of a day planning one's day (the day or week before a total time of over 20 minutes is okay). Etc., etc.

Okay day yesterday. Did get something from Gerner that maybe the stress is good -- that I'm going through a transition that provides the stress. Got a fair amount done otherwise. Need to trash the green cards. They are adding to the stress!

Great day yesterday. Just sat in my chair and went through stuff. This was so productive, especially along with my green cards. However, I'm getting a little overwhelmed with my cards. I also didn't get all the things done on the board. I need to be a bit less ambitious with the board but use it near my desk and perhaps post it in a more visible place or ??? Try to get these things done before I sit down.

Maybe I can chuck my cards when I'm done with the task. That might help.

Good day overall however. Sitting at a chair away from my desk is good. Also at a chair not on the computer is good as well. Weekly reviews are essential which is largely what it was yesterday.

Pretty good day so far. Input blog for yesterday, making great progress on fun files, organized medicine stuff , organized by door, put out plug, put out dvd's, talked w/yvonne and danny re: matches, talked with Darcy re: LR, talked with Mom and Dad (first class, Shermans -- Mr. in program and got better), read a bit of newspaper, listened to radio programs recorded, listened / watches morning news programs, clear desk/table, wrote long-term projects, current projects, and today's tasks on whiteboard which I am working on.

Great day, really, so far. Maybe just being in a chair with a back in it and going through stuff with the bed as a place to put stuff on is great (I need to keep the chair clear).

Good going David!

Lousy day -- depressed, didn't do much but go to Pomona and not find the computer faire. Bailed out of going to Health Faire with Steve Gee because of Sarah. Didn't even blog. Did worry about the guys stealing my pens and going through my alphabetical hanging folders. I need to make another set of those for home and for my car.

Slept mostly otherwise. Did watch the end of the Sopranos and did get on the deck to read some newspapers but otherwise a loss. Didn't take Ritalin. When I thought about it around 3 p.m. it was too dangerous. Need to remind myself (weekly review or whatever) all the things I can do and lay off me. Its okay to waste a day but it might as well be fun rather than bad.

Maybe my posting things on my whiteboard in front of me will help. I should try to update it weekly.

Actually did make significant progress on the fun pictures -- binderizing them and ripping them apart.

Pretty good day. Did not do much when I got home but before I got there I did a fair amount. Organized some stuff, Put todo's on green cards which I like so far, Had a good discussion w/Kupper re: I have so much anger inside me towards Steve, Yvonne, Mom and Dad, Maintenance guys, Sarah Wise, Matt, etc. and it would be much better if I let it out. Instead I am keeping it in which is what causes so much stress for me. Instead of letting it out I direct it at myself. I have come to not direct my anger at another person (I generally don't feel anything towards them which is a bit unusual). If someone else did these things to another I would be livid and would consider them slime. I need to try to think of things in that way.

Otherwise, it would be nice to have a good weekend. To do my best to make good use of the green cards, the tr, and going through as much as I can. I also need to get some headphones. What about tennis this weekend -- I mean watching it?

I also need to look back at these blogs and start writing a letter to M and D. I think a weekly review is really important at this point. I need to make time for it (maybe in car or in library). Try your hardest to get this done this weekend.

Still feel so stressed. Bashir is almost outta here. I'm very sad about that. It will be lonely here without him and I will feel more vulnerable to the guys.

Did get to the downtown event w/Stein and Dowling. Kind of interesting though Stein is obnoxious. Meant to ask Rodriguez why we don't see much of his column anymore. Apartment stuff more or less coming along.

Pretty good day though again, I feel so stressed out. I really hate this.

I did a big wash load, Did a fair amount of stuff in my car, Loaded some stuff for my car, Did a daily review, and so forth. Overall pretty good.

Had a good session w/Kupper. Need to mention the focusing on important stuff thing. But glad to get his perspective on dealing with Steve and Mom and Dad and so on. Maybe a letter that I draft would help alot.

Keep up the good work!

Was kind of frustrated with Steve Gee re: Sarah but oh well...

I'm once again feeling great stress. I am not sure why this is. Partly I have a terrible feeling with respect to Steve that he's going to complain about me or make up some story negative with respect to me. I don't know what to do about that other than to establish how I've felt for forever. Perhaps once I have established that and the greater legitimacy of my feelings, the better I'll feel. Perhaps I can write some letters and put them somewhere. I should write down in notes or a kind of writeup how I feel. Hopefully that will help. I also need to join Match.com, now!

I need to also talk w/Kupper about a number of these things.

Decent day. Actually was really a miserable day. Slept the entire day except watching some Sopranos, some of the Raging Bulls documentary. Was better w/girls and afterwards, no pressure, just organizer, went through and listed things to do tonight, tomorrow, and best approaches like -- daily review before bed on tomorrow's "today" list, listing todos at home on white board and try to get all done before go to sleep, try to work out of binder while filing extra stuff in cabinet. Also using tr and transcribing it regularly.

Overall, though day not great, ended up being a good day. Bravo. Try to get stuff, important stuff, done in morining and then feel that was good day no matter what else happens. Also try to find better ways of getting stuff done daily. At work maybe use Michael's white board.

Also as I hung out with girls, decided I needed to relax more. Much more. If something happens, I need to not let it be my problem. If I am unhappy with stuff at work, oh well... Just let it go!

Actually doing yesterday's blog since yesterday's blog was done early this morning. Actually since I had such a miserable Saturday, I never got to blog (since I didn't get up til 5 p.m.). I couldn't sleep Saturday night, even at 1 or 2 a.m. (I went to bed at 1 a.m.). I did take R at 5 p.m. when I got up so that probably had alot to do with it thought I also think that my excitement with getting stuff done and anticipating getting more and more things done with my improved system (writing items on whiteboard, projects on whiteboard, making a point of looking at it). I will try my best to not ignore my binder / my index cards when I get home.

Doing this and getting onto this new tact makes me feel much better -- that I'm moving in the right direction. However, I must always keep in mind that when I am well organized, I need to spend time on the things that are most important to me -- job, web site, romance, health, personal finance. Otherwise these systems are just reinforcing of the systems. I need to stop building the system, get it going, doing things that aren't that important to bolster the system, get frustrated, and never get to what's really important. The organizing systems are all for getting to the important things. That's always the goal and must be the goal!

Another so-so day. I've been way too stressed at work. Did play tennis and got some stuff in my car. Also asked Cecelia if it was okay if I asked her on a date which was great.

Rough day yesterday which is why I am just doing the blogging now.

Too busy for too much. Don't like things that way. Its too frustrating. I did spend some time in my car yesterday afternoon which I really liked. That was great. I need to keep doing that and hopefully I'll get to where I need to be.

Otherwise all is well.

Decent day yesterday. Good to go to Kupper. I feel that I'm #3 at best on everyone's list. I also go in expecting people not to like me. I sometimes do the reverse, and when I get a neutral response I think people don't like me when they may be neutral or it may be something I can come back from. I need to believe that things aren't set in stone with other people. If they react in a negative way, that doesn't mean I won't get another chance. I need to realize that others can tolerate a bit of downness. I also need to realize that I have alot to offer -- even if some like me, some don't, and some are neutral. I have alot to offer no matter how I perceive how others perceive me.

Pretty good day yesterday. Did get some stuff done when I got home, particularly picking up food (following card) and putting wash in my car. Good job! Need to keep up this system while keeping to write notes in binder daily.

I'm a bit depressed though I feel better when Francisco tells me that he doesn't like the new breakfast setup. Also it was great taking a walk for break. That's so much more productive than sitting around, etc.

Still feel a bit stressed by I'm doing okay. My new system of having dates on the tasks and checking them daily is good. Also should read blogs weekly as part of weekly review.

Pretty good day so far today. I did get going late to see Srikanth (which is his given name). His Father's name is Rajaham (or something like that).

Spoke with Mom and Dad. LM for Yvonne. I am okay when I know where I'm going and what I'm doing. When I'm in the ether I am very sad. I need to keep using the binder but using the cards as well from the computer and todo lists in the binder.

Did a fair amount of work this weekend. Oh well, what are you going to do.

If I can get on a schedule, I'll be doing better.

Pretty good, though long day. Did the field trip. It went well, we ended up with a good turnout and stuff.

I was unhappy with Sarah taking DaWayne and Deadra out for dinner after the trip. Really not a good idea. End of story. Let her take DaWayne and Deadra home with Steve and with a permission slip. But must make clear to Steve that if she wants to do this, she must do it separately from him and his mom is clear about this. No exceptions.

Pretty good day. Still exhausted. Very sad that Fernando got hurt yesterday.

The leaving of Bashir has been stressful for me as has the new breakfast situation. I knew when the guys moved over here that I wouldn't like it. I also don't like much sharing the responsibilities with Fernando regarding the mold moves.

Did get most lr stuff done for ft and called kids and hopefully they'll come. Otherwise all else reasonably well.

Pretty good day.

Saw Steven Levitt and Dubner. Enjoyed it at the Milken Institute. Sorry I didn't make an attempt which would have been easy to speak with the person sitting next to me. She seemed nice, pretty, and had read the book. It would have been fun to talk with her about it. I kind of had my mind on someone else who I didn't sit next to (this might have been silly as well).

From now on, have low expectations, if you can meet one person, do so and talk with them.

Did get some filing done at desk which was good. Also getting lr stuff done, mostly. Not much else. Was rather tired when I got home. Must be better prepared when get home!

Pretty good day. Not great. Did see Governors but got overwhelmed by the Valence / 700 Markers move. Overall doing okay. Was sorry that Judy didn't join me. Did get some filing done at home and some quicken downloading.

Need to get more into the habit of daily stuff at home.

So-so day. Was down. Went home a bit early. Tried to get car fixed but to no avail. Tried to get haircut but to no avail. Hated being at break with the guys. Hopefully that will be the last time.

Did transcribe my entire tr which was great. I need to get into that habit. I also need to get into the habit of packing my car w/junk.

All in all okay.

Good day yesterday though when I got home I pretty much fell asleep. Need to find a comfortable position for myself inside that doesn't involve lying on my bed.

Was happy with playing tennis yesterday and getting lots done at work afterwards (organizationally). Do need to pack car when I get home and pack bag too. Can't wait until following morning. That just won't work.

All otherwise okay. I like the schedule (9-10, ..; 10-11..).

So - so Saturday. How can I make my apartment like my work -- lots of light, comfortable, able to focus, etc. Perhaps just need to go to library and have a laptop or ???

Had a pretty good session though not much of a turnout. Had a nice time with Matthew for Lunch and then went home and did blog and do a few things though not much before watching a movie and sleeping. Did actually chuck some magazines and newspapers (after going through them). Need to keep on top of them and chuck them as much as possible. Also put filing case on desk and will try to file as much as I can in there as well as file from there to cabinet once a week (Fridays?).

Otherwise, did transcribe tr which was great. Need to make as much use of tr as possible and then transcribe. Need to make a point of reading the transcription daily and weekly and so on so its fresh and I can also edit it and refer back to it.

Okay day. Worked late. Had a nice dinner w/Srikanth.

Went home and did other fun things. Did do some good organizing things.

Had a reasonably good day. Felt a lot of stress - getting out email re: valence molds and so on. Did speak with Mary and had a reasonably good conversation. She's very nice and sounded stressed. She's studying to be a teacher as CSUN. She also has a guy in her life. I mentioned tennis and that's when she mentioned the guy. Made too many excuses for her not being good about keeping in touch.

Had a nice time w/Caroline Yeh and her friend Barbara. Barbara is a bit of a 60's lefty and lots of fun. Caroline is nice though a bit standoffish. Hard to read, really. Very very nice exterior disposition. Was embarrassed to run into Rick Matzner there. Should probably not have carpooled with her since I was in such a rush to leave.

Had a pretty good day yesterday. Went and saw Ana Marie Cox who was great -- refreshing, fun, entertaining, and inimitable. Never thought about the sociological side of Washington D.C. before. I guess she's the comic relief there. She did say that she feels more passionate when her side dissappoints her, which is true with me and Mickey Kaus (as he indicated).

Talked with Mary and agreed to call her Wednesday morning. That will work just great. She sounds so nice on the phone. Felt good that I was pretty comfortable (treated it as no big deal) calling her and talking with her. She's very cool.

Didn't have much time after Cox event. But it did help that I put together a schedule of things to do and I got most of them done and felt like I was hurrying to the next one each time which felt good (like I wasn't wasting time).

Did well on todo list as well.

Pretty good day yesterday. Did get lots done with my binder and projects and so on.

Had good session with Kupper. It was clear that I need to try my best a number of times to get my parents to accept responsibility for what they have done and how they have behaved. Until I try doing that a number of times (let's say 5), I can forgive myself and feel that I really did try and they just are incapable. At this point I still feel that they are capable of fessing up and seeing things my way. Their cop-outs like, I see it differently or that was so long ago or ... can't go unchallenged.

Did not get much done when went home. I guess I need to go back to doing much work in the car. Leaving lots for at home doesn't work very well.

Had a great Sunday.

Played tennis in the morning and got killed. I played so badly it was pathetic. I really need to work on my game if I'm to have any fun. Lessons or ???

Saw Robert P and spent the day at the Giants game. That was sooo much fun. We ate lots, I got an update on his life, etc., etc. We had some fun driving there and back and then we went separately to Heather's mom's house. Had fun there. Robert seems more out of the whole family situation than I had remembered. Heather looked great and seemed to be doing fine. The kids were great though they didn't seem particularly engaged / eager to talk with me. I felt terrible not to have a gift for them and didn't much like the flowers I brought.

Reasonably good Saturday. Had tutor get-together. Was fun, particularly with Judea. She's so cool.

Had discussion with Sarah, Matt, and Angela about Chandavan. Discussed what we could do if anything to make sure this didn't happen to our current kids. Agreed on trying to provide vocational -- getting into college, career stuff to them.

Saw the boys, Polly, Mom and Dad, Steve, Wendi, Yvonne, Danny, and Dylan. It was also nice to see Heidi and Joe. They're great. Their sons are named Connor and Nick. Polly was helping Steve setup his ipod. I helped point out that if the ipod is connected you can see it. As usual he didn't acknowledge something he had learned from me but I think it was key to get them to figure it out. I do communicate unusually well with Polly. This is so nice.

Reasonably good Friday. No visit to Steve and Wendi (the traditional visit). Mom said I had to get up early the next day so I should not come over. I didn't get a call until Friday at 6 at which time I was on the road. I did fiddle around with my player but without a lot of success. Called Olympus and figured out that need to change setting to SP and then upload it (or pull it directly from the dss). I need to set up a sop for this.

Am excited about getting together w/Robert Pahl. And I told Mom that was going to be the case.

Good session w/Kupper. He said I need to redirect my attention to how I feel towards others. I need to figure out how I feel towards Steve and Dad and Mom. Am I mad, angry. How do I feel when I get mad at them???

Decent day. Got overtime. Got new tr. Dictated in it. Called several kids. Mostly worked, however.

Also watched a bunch of Larry David. I deserve it.

All is fine otherwise.

Good day. My long-term list is coming in handy.

Did some good spring cleaning, checked out vr at Radio Shack, and so on. Could have been better if I had gone to the library. Did pickup some sodas though I ate a cookie. Saw an incredibly beautiful though frumpily dressed woman coming out of Walgreen's. I need to always look my best.

Overall, reasonably good day. Also did schedule appointment with Kupper and did my todo's list. Try to get them done daily (post when I get it home). Take it down and put in binder that night.

Need to get a little further with website, etc. Maybe the vr will really help???

Also checked if vr will work with software. Seems that it will.

So-so day yesterday. Did play tennis, did hook up dvd, and did call Dylan and talk with her.

Am optimistic about today. Need a very few sheets to work off of. That helps alot. I did also get my new ritalin as per Gerner who said to do 40-40-40-60-60-60-80-80-80. Picked it up yesterday which is really tremendous that I have been getting on top of important things right away.

I am also glad, which I think I neglected to mention, that I visited the library in Malibu on Saturday. I wonder what its Sunday hours are (I could listen to its tapes there???).

Overall pretty good day.

Will see Gerner in 5 weeks.

Decent day yesterday. Did work late, talked w/Yvonne, etc., etc., etc.

Did not get much done outside of work though once again I did get to work before 7 and filled my car with gas.

Not really all that much to report.

Did hear that Chandavan had a baby. Thearithan delivered it apparantly. Kind of crazy (I guess they kept it from their parents).

Pretty good Saturday. Saw the boys who are so cute, saw Polly who is so great (and we connect so well). I love hanging out with her. Also saw Heidi and Joe who are such terrific people. He's really the greatest guy. Steve on the other hand is so annoying, especially with Polly and the girls (his joking is jarring). Did get some interesting info from Danny on his job situation (will be eventually moving to St. Johns). Some stuff still in Valencia. Could go to UCLA but money is 1/2 as much. Though better lifestyle. Bummed that helped Steve w/Apple. he didn't know that when you connect a ipod to it you can see the ipod so you know if the connection worked or not. I don't think he would have known this and thus, as usual, he gave me no credit or acknowledgement or acknowledged that he knows nothing about a Mac. The usual. I just wish I didn't pitch in at all. What an idiot I am (he always gets the best out of me which makes me feel so used).

So-so Sunday. Had fun with Kamlest and Srikanth. Did also talk w/Mom and Dad. Also transcribed tr which was good. Ran into some troubles trying to learn FrontPage. Not good.

Otherwise all is well. Did blog yesterday which helped (and did this for two days). Need to try to do some of my stuff as soon as I get home!

Decent Saturday. Had a good session and did great at the library -- going through most of my papers and organizing them. Was soo great to pack up all the necessary stuff and get it out the door before Let's Read. Really really pleased.

Didn't get much done when finally got home around 7 but that's okay. Mostly slept. After get so much done, maybe just give self a break?

Great day yesterday -- got so much done -- did big wash, cleared out lots of stuff -- setup toothbrush -- found some stuff to go through -- went through small papers -- etc.

Very very very pleased. Also did sheets. This is enough to make my weekend, easily.

Nuff said.

So so day once again. Working from a computer I guess just works better.

I need to try that. Didn't get much done when I got home. Need to have a strict schedule when I get home to keep me on task.

Okay day. So-so. Did blog, did transcribe tr as much as I could, did go to dentist and enjoyed my session there (though the teeth xrays were horrible). Liked my dentist alot. She took lots of time to talk with me. She was a sweatheart.

Otherwise didn't get much else done. Went home and pretty much fell asleep. Did see Maria at safety meeting. She was sweet and cute. Nice to have Jerry gone all week.

All otherwise reasonably okay. Do need to get my stuff layed out first thing.

Pretty good day yesterday.

Got a shock this morning that Bashir is leaving.

Not very happy about that but oh well, what can you do. Did work late and well last night. Good job. Finally cleaned up Library and organized papers on my desk.

Also read the good part of WCIYP. I should try to listen to that part (elements 30-45) once a month. Its great. Didn't really have time, once I got home, to do much but listen to it and the 1776 speech.

Did make lunch for today and put out clothes for today.

Overall good job, particularly give that I worked until after 7 p.m. and went to bed at 10. Only down side is that I did not record Law and Order. Silly really.

Reasonably good day. I guess not only getting things done but getting far along on my projects is what matters.

I need to focus on my projects and get as much of them done as possible and move towards completion of each of them. That ultimately is what will give me satisfaction.

Still, did fix my printer (a big fix), returned videos, saw both boys for the first time, saw Julie, saw Steve, pointed out Polly's piece in the newspaper to Polly, Yvonne, and Mom and Dad, transcribed tr, and called Mr. Nix. Also communicated a bit with Caroline. Also blogged whic was good.

So so day. But keep your chin up. You're focusing reasonably well. I had a better Sunday than I usually do so I should not knock it.

Need to prepare the today's ahead of time. That will make a big difference.

Did talk w/Polly, cleared my desk, cleared much of my white shelf and put away lots of stuff. Updating of Quicken is great.

Did input the blog for yesterday and today and listened to WCIYP 16 units which was good. Also found a few good web sites (long tail, etc.). Better Sunday than most, especially given that I was on my own!

Pretty good day yesterday. Too busy to get much reading done or work on goals. Didn't do blog though I did it today.

But had a good session at Let's Read, had a great time at the Hollywood Bowl. Deadra is so adorable. Sarah is a very very nice person and great with DaWayne and Deadra. DaWayne was very well behaved as was Luis and Cesar.

Didn't get much else done (went home and read front page and slept). That's okay. Just try to get stuff done today. Nice not to have any other plans now.

Pretty good Friday though didn't get much done when I got home. That's okay!

Giving myself a break is so important that I'm going to try to incorporate it as much as I can. I need to forgive myself as much as I can and try to improve on things with this forgiveness approach. This notion is a kind of breakthrough for me.

I must persevere which is an important value from the War of Art book. I also need to continue focusing on what is going to move me forward. Getting tickets at the academy was important because it moves me in the direction of having more friends and perhaps a relationship with Caroline. It sounds like her friend is very much into animation. That's worth it.

Spending too much time reading the newspaper, say without a tr or just spending too much time on it is not worth it unless I can justify it against learning web site development, reading financial statements, and using numbers to being a good businessman.

Overall a pretty good day though I didn't get as much as I would liked to have at work. Perhaps I can get the little niggly things done first and then do the work orders (even though I like to get them out of the way first, I never seem to). Another alternative is spending the first one hour and a half w/work orders and my computer things and by say break time and after I do the running around things until lunch.

Overall a pretty good day.

Good day yesterday. Got lots done on my to-do list. Need to stick to todo list. It makes life so much easier and I focus on what I need to do, not all the extranous other stuff. Got a call from Dylan last night but missed it. So nice, always, to hear from the girls.

Will pickup Academy tickets today. Excited about that since I'll get to see Caroline again a couple of times and am kind of doing her a favor. She's a cool chick.

Had a great time playing tennis with Vivek. He's a really good guy. When I bent over more I played so much better. I also beat him. Felt great. Had dinner afterwards with him and his friend Ed. Vivek didn't seem too eager to talk politics (he seemed bored by the conversation). I had a Masala Dosa and he paid. He's from Chennai. He said we would play tennis next week.

I didn't do much tr yesterday but that's okay. I did get lots else done (like downloading my financial data from Quicken and emailing Mary and getting out my bus request). All in all very good day. I'm pleased with my progress. Stay on track. The earlier in the day I can get my most arduous tasks done, the better. If I could only get up at 5 and get all the at home tasks done that would be great. Perhaps I should start going to bed at 9 p.m.? Then at the end of the day I would be more free to do what I need to do and relax too.

All in all things are going great. I'm doing my best to stick to the important stuff and not waste too much time on the ancillary stuff like television. Need to figure out how to handle the newspaper as it is becoming a burden. I do need to use my tr with it so I can remember the big issues. Perhaps I can allot 20 minutes to the LA Times Daily and perhaps another 15 minutes to the NY Times.

Try to do weekly review first thing Sunday morning before talking w/Mom and Dad?

Very pleased with getting a fair amount of ot yesterday, marketing, installing quicken, reading what I set out to read, and transcribing tr.

Overall a good day. Using word todo list is going great so far. Need to find a more effective way of doing it at home. Perhaps as soon as I get home I can post it, highlight the things I need to do standing up that will be quick, and then sit down with the rest. What about that?

Emailed back and forth with Roger. Got out email to Caroline which was great. How about Mary? Set up tennis date with Vivek.

Did not get to take out link for watch but otherwise did well. Even got alot done at work.

Would like to get back to waking up at 5:30 and getting to work at 6 / 6:30. That really helps.

Better day yesterday. Did talk w/Steve. He said I could see him and Wendi and the babies possibly on Saturday after the program. As usual he didn't give me a choice, just said Saturday and I didn't respond. I need to next time.

Got my reading and transcribing done as well as nearly all of my todo's which is great. Starting on FrontPage was good and exciting as well as picking up Quicken. Slept in this morning but that's okay. I still got to work earlier than I used to (7:10). Overall doing well. This scheduling thing is going great so far. Already plans for tennis this week and on and on. Also made it to the market.

Good day yesterday.

Yesterday was okay. Not great. I did go home after my session and basically fell asleep after not finding quicken in the store. I am still a bit under the weather though I'm not sure why. Nevertheless I am hanging in there and have transcribed most of my tr from Sunday.

Had a decent though not great Sunday. Was mostly under the weather.

Did transcribe tr and went through some books and newspapers.

Had a pretty good party for Mom and Dad's anniversary. Nice to see the Peccei's, the Selleck's, and the Weissman's as well as Liz. Always great to see all of the kids and the Kirsch's (who are always so nice to me).

Actually missed doing this today but am doing it on Monday.

Had reasonably good weekend. I need to start thinking about me before others so I can get what I need done. Glad Mom and Dad are gone (or leaving Monday).

So-so Saturday. Had dinner and afterwards with Polly and Mom and Dad.

Pretty good day so far. I really need to get back to tr'ing stuff. I will feel so much better.

Had a decent lr session, did a good orientation, but I need more time for myself and my self-development. After dinner maybe I'll go home fairly soon thereafter???

Glad I got to this, glad I finished the War of Art, glad I oriented Judea, glad I talked with Stanley today, glad I convinced Polly to go out to dinner (I really adore her), glad I wrapped Dylan's gift, glad I took roll, glad I got the low-down from Yvonne on the proscuitto, etc., etc.

Overall a good day though I don't feel great about it.

Alicia will be gone the 9th and the 16th.

I'm still under the weather. I'm not entirely sure why but I am.

I need to get back to my tr and reading regimen and I will feel better.

I've been under the weather for a few days. That's okay. Again, that's okay. I got into the argument with Fernando a couple of days ago and was already feeling down about my wallet being gone. My wallet is back and I seem to be doing fine with Fernando and Jerry. I guess I just need to get back on the saddle, get back to what I was doing before, be clear about what I want to get done outside of work, and so forth. Doing some stuff in the car before I go into the apartment definitely helps. This is of course harder when I'm doing something during the day. Perhaps I should plan events like tennis or the like after the daylight is no more. Then I can get some stuff done in my car and do whatever it is I need to do.

For not being too down I need to give myself lots and lots of credit. Good job!

Doing this blog regularly and using my binder regularly has really helped. Getting back to using the tr will help alot as well.

So-so day yesterday. Got furious with Fernando after he didn't answer my call and we tried out his radio together and it turned out it was working fine when he called me (not perfectly but I had no trouble understanding him). He suggested that I was calling him a liar which of course I was not.

Saw David McCullough yesterday evening. He was absolutely terrific. No more can be said. When I got home my wallet and fanny pack and all else was there. That was truly a relief.

I didn't get much non-work stuff done yesterday but I hung in there and am giving myself space.

Doing great overall. Called prospective new tutor, keeping up on my todo's and looking at list daily, etc., etc.

Good job David.

Spoke w/Steve yesterday and was nice to talk w/Wendi. She's doing the c-section on Tuesday.

Pretty good day. I'm a little down about no wallet. But all considering, I'm managing fine. I've already ordered a new license, a new atm/credit card, a new badge. I miss having a wallet and need one and am uneasy about not having my checkbook. I'll have to cancel the remaining checks in the next week or so (so the one check I wrote will go through).

I did see Michael Cunningham at the Library, spoke w/Steve yesterday, transcribed the rest of my notes, got in early, got an hour and 1/4 of ot, got the work order backlog done, input JB's procedures, returned Ellis, got rid of some papers, and so on. All in all another good day.

If I hit a rocky point, that's okay.

In my last post I focused on Sunday when I should have focused on Saturday (I usually focus on the day before). Saturday was another great day. Matt and I had a very nice, revealing lunch. The session went very well. I had a bit of a rapprochment with Angela. I went to the library and limited my checking out to one new book while I read several chapters of my current books and worked on my todos and my notes.

I did more work on my apartment as well.


All in all a good day.

David

P.S. I can get work done at home if I plan to go out afterwards. Otherwise I basically wind down.

Had an altogether great day up until I realized I had lost my wallet. I think I left it behind on the tennis courts but I'm not sure. I kind of rushed off the courts with Amanda because she kind of rushes. I am not going to rush next time regardless of what she does. When I pulled into McDonald's later in the day I realized that I didn't have my fanny pack with me in the front of the car. But I figured it was just in the trunk. Foolishly (and perhaps self-destructively) I assumed it was in the trunk. I proceeded to purchase something, drive a few blocks for shade, and go through my reading todos (newspaper, books, audio, etc.). I also turned off my engine and left on the ac.

Well the ac stopped and I realized I had run through the juice on my battery. I then discovered my fanny pack was nowhere to be found. I proceeded to call AAA, got the problem fixed, and went on back to the courts and no wallet (at lost in found or on the courts or ...). I though maybe someone called me but no one did. This hurt the rest of my day (but these things happen). I listened to the rest of the tape, transcribed the (most of it), and listened to audio stuff on the computer, and finished Charles' email.

All in all another great day in spite of the one letdown. I need to be very focused with my valuables.

Another good day. Wow!

Had a good Let's Read session. Forgot to thank Steve and Matt.

Woke up early, read the paper in the morning, didn't really screw around.

Had great lunch w/Matt, did some useful stuff at the library, took some notes and made clear what let's read stuff I need to do for next weekend.

Am doing this, resolved my stuff w/Yvonne and Steve and I think Yvonne will be more gracious on the thanking me for my suggestion.

Am getting a bunch of reading done -- the war of art is so great -- and yes, I'm a professional and get back on the horse no matter how much it bucks me because that's what I do. Any excuse gives in to resistance which I can't do!

Great day, once again. Good session with Dr. Kupper. Good day at work (great getting in early). Packed strategically, making to do list strategically, trying to plan for Sunday strategically, etc.

I hope it keeps up.

However, more importantly, if I take a creep down, that's okay. I need to give myself space. Its never the case that I give myself too much space.

I need to go easy on myself when I get down, view it as a break from the ups, keep to the same regular routine when I'm up again. Above all -- go easy on me and stick with the same formula even if it doesn't give me the results I want.

Good day yesterday. Got lots done at work, got lots of organizing done at home, p/u food , made several lr calls, emailed several people. It was an all-around great day. Getting to work early really really helps set the tone for my day.

Using the trash cans also helps a great deal. Perhaps I can quickly use them, work on the stuff inside, and then work on some more contents. All my papers can go above the mail slots.

Great to have some food at home and to work on Spring cleaning. If I can do that regularly that would be terrific!

Good day yesterday afternoon. Pleased that worked so late yet was so focused. I knew exactly what I needed to do and did it. How can I create a setup so that works for me in the rest of my life and the small little tasks for work work that way as well.

Maybe I can put my to do items on this blog and check them off daily (maybe a daily checklist???).

I am thrilled that I got to work early this morning and yesterday. This means that I can stay a little extra late and get paid for it. I got here just at 6:45 which is too bad since I didn't earn the extra 15 minutes of pay.

I did get my ritalin and am hopeful that that will help.

Good day yesterday afternoon. Pleased that worked so late yet was so focused. I knew exactly what I needed to do and did it. How can I create a setup so that works for me in the rest of my life and the small little tasks for work work that way as well.

Maybe I can put my to do items on this blog and check them off daily (maybe a daily checklist???).

I am thrilled that I got to work early this morning and yesterday. This means that I can stay a little extra late and get paid for it. I got here just at 6:45 which is too bad since I didn't earn the extra 15 minutes of pay.

I did get my ritalin and am hopeful that that will help.

Good day yesterday afternoon. Pleased that worked so late yet was so focused. I knew exactly what I needed to do and did it. How can I create a setup so that works for me in the rest of my life and the small little tasks for work work that way as well.

Maybe I can put my to do items on this blog and check them off daily (maybe a daily checklist???).

I am thrilled that I got to work early this morning and yesterday. This means that I can stay a little extra late and get paid for it. I got here just at 6:45 which is too bad since I didn't earn the extra 15 minutes of pay.

I did get my ritalin and am hopeful that that will help.

Good day today.

Very busy and focused. I like to be busy and focused. If I can be this way all the time on all I do that would be so great.

It just needs to be crystal clear to me what I need to do. Turn all my work into 1 Excel spreadsheet input and doublechecked with a clear deadline. Get it done.

Was not a great day.

Good parts:

• saw Dr. Gerner, prescribed Ritalin which I am looking forward to taking.
• found my wallet
• packed my lunch
• got a fair amount of inputting
• talked w/Paul re: add. Good conversation.
• Potential for going to Martin Lawrence premiere
• Seeing Heidi again (cool girl)
• Hearing from Jenny, the prospective tutor
• Getting up by 5:30 and getting out of the house by 6:00.
• Making my lunch this morning.

Okay, so I'm inputting this on Monday mornings.

I had a pretty awful Sunday. I slept all day until Polly's dance performance, got to her performance late, and drove Mom and Dad to the airport, then instead of going to work I decided I wanted to get things done so I drove home and pretty much slept the rest of the night away.

I need to have very specific goals in mind and get to them the very first thing (go right to balcony, etc). Also I need to try on Sundays to get whatever I can be sure I'll be able to get done done and then get to other stuff later (go to work first...).

Pretty good day. Not much on the organizational front.

Steve left a nice message re: the Jack Welch book.

Did not get any phone numbers from LA Works Day. Had fun, however. Don't know why didn't really get to meet Ann Burroughs.

Pretty good day.

I am excited that I am inputting this today, that I have been keeping up on this, on making my lunch, on setting out my clothes the night before, transcribing the tr daily, working out of my organizer, etc., etc.

Things so far are good. I read parts of the Hallowell book which is also great.

Reasonably good day. Packed my lunch, put out my clothes, Finished washing dishes, etc., etc.

Did a good bit of reading on add and ocd. Also thought my book on the War of Art is fabulous. What scares you you should go towards.

I did briefly talk with the girl from Toyota. She is sooo hot. She has read hair and is in great shape. We briefly talked about her phone problems. Thast was great.

Also did some stuff at home on the computer and trasnscribed my tr notes onto my organizer.

All is reasonably good.

Pretty good day yesterday. Laid out my clothes, read three chapters of numbers book (numbers and business) which helped me realize that there's really two parts that I need to learn when it comes to accounting and finance. One, why is it and two, how is it done. Much of the why is it I know but the how it is done I need to learn.

I also used my tr to go through the books which was great. I checked out my next door neighbor who isn't bad looking. I emailed Andrea and moved my to do's one day. And I'm pretty much keeping up with things. I also heard more from the French women and fat tape.

Great day yesterday. Leaving work at a reasonable hour helped alot. Doing a few things in the car, shopping, having a reasonable plan, having the tools to do the job. All these things helped a great deal.

I need to keep it up. Continue using organizer page, continue leaving work at a reasonable hour, and so on.

So-so weekend. It so helps to have things to do on Sunday. I need to schedule myself every Sunday morning, no matter what.

So so evening. So so day.

I am excited about going to the doctor for a medicine consultation. I'll need that. I am uncomfortable about getting Sanjay's Dodger tickets. Its nice but I would rather not have gotten them.

A slightly better day. Played tennis last night which felt great. Got a bit of filing done and posted my organizer on my desk atop the bins.

Still thinking way way too much about family. Want to get back to looking down and making the small strides I can. Also did find most of my LR receipts which is great!

I wish I had packed my clothes to be washed last night.

Lousy weekend. Really lousy. After Saturday I basically lay around and did nothing. I am really depressed at the moment and thinking way too much about Steve and Yvonne and what terrible siblings they are.

I need to get back focused on doing stuff and less on dwelling. When I go home, no sitting down allowed! I need to work out of my binder which should be stationed high so I can stand up (on some sort of structure). Perhaps I can fill some bins and place my binder on top of those on my desk?

Good evening. Did work on my balcony, did work in my car, went through books, etc. In good shape. Keep up the good work!

Great evening. My apartment is in so much better shape this morning than it was yesterday morning. My files are almost completely up to date. I think I may have tracked down most if not all of the LR receipts, and so on.

I am very pleased. This is a great first step in the right direction.

Reasonably good morning. I need to keep this up -- the web stuff.

My packing my magazines helps enormously as does my going through them (making that a priority). Also my packing the Let's Read receipts helps enormously.

Perhaps if I can do the next step analysis for all the things I want to accomplish and put them on my list I can get on the way to accomplishing them.

Another, relatively good morning. Delighted that I did this again. This can be my internal diary -- it can keep me honest and on top of things.

I need to get my filing done / finished tonight so I can feel that I accomplished that. I need to leave work as early as I can to do this.

Looking over these daily sites is great. The Allen, GTD site discussion board is great. I need to regularly review the book and get my stuff in shape. I need to also toss toss toss.

Overall good morning.

I did fall asleep last night while starting to work on my folders on my bed. The nice thing about the bed is that its comfortable, the bad thing is that I'm that more likely to fall asleep and into the night.

Good day -- a good overall morning.

Planning in advance as to what I need to do makes all the difference.

My "daily" web sites should help as do my insistence on using my organizer religiously. With the organizer in hand I can make it. I just need to get through the backlog!